It’s All Right Now

Yeah baby, it’s all right now.  I find myself smiling at different times, or remembering part of a conversation and chuckling to myself.  Singing sappy songs.  I haven’t felt this in a LONG time, and it feels really good.  This all due to my new friend on the other side of the world.  We had some deep and intense conversation yesterday,  and for hours yesterday and into today I feel a sense of calm.  The world seems loud sometimes.  I retreat into the quiet,  and emerge ready to deal with it all.  Bring the noise!

So what about my PLR you may be asking?  The person who started this whole thought process this year.  The spell has been broken fully by my new friend, who has so much to offer. 

 When you meet someone who has this effect on you, you may feel scared at first by your feelings.   What does this mean?  I know I did for several weeks,  but can honestly say I’m good taking it day by day,  moment by moment. 

To get to this point, we have had some very direct, tough and honest conversations.  Even though by nature I am not an open person, and am really more introverted,  I have held absolutely nothing back.  There were a few things that were hard for me to say.  It was easier for me to get past my own reservations and fears, than to let my friend think I did not trust her.  I had to first trust myself, and say no to fear.

So, some of you are probably wondering “WHY don’t you have these kinds of talks with your wife?”?  I am met with resistance,  rather than an open willingness to get to the heart of the matter.  It’s not to say I won’t try again, but I’m just tired of having to pry at the moment.   

This year, I plan to become stronger and burn brighter.  Although I do this first for myself, I love my inspiration afterburner, shooting me farther than I thought I could go.

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Author: fight4urlover

So about me... I'm a middle-aged guy, married 15+ years with kids. I love my wife, and have never so much as kissed another woman the entire time we have been married. When we first met, we had both been cheated on, and we decided that we would not cheat on each other. I think we have both teetered on the edge. Like most married couples, over the years, we have given each other plenty of reasons to build resentment at times. So this space is a personal reflection of my journey of attempting to remain married and true. That's why I started this first-ever blog. The goal is to avoid sounding like one of those "perfect" articles of someone who sounds like they are giving advice. This all comes from personal experience or from talking to other people, married and single, and I want to keep it raw. To me that's more exciting than a well-researched topic. Everyone can relate to this on a human level. I know that guys like to get to the point, and ladies like a good story with plenty of details, so I'll try to find a balance. Strap in and let's ride!

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