I cannot explain the series of events which have taken place over the last several weeks. It all started playing a random game online. Something off-color in the game made me laugh, so I used the chat feature to point it out. I rarely use this feature, and typically decline. For some reason, this person responded, and that was the beginning of a beautiful friendship over that last several weeks. She is intelligent, sexy and seems to share a lot of the same amusements as I do, and lives on the other side of the world.
There are coincidences..for lack of a better word, that are just mind blowing. It’s like “the Force” in Star Wars…We feel when we are thinking about each other across the world sometimes. Many of the same issues in my marriage, she too is dealing with. All communication has been open and honest. I have not laughed out loud so often in a long time. With the time difference, it is morning when it’s evening for the other. Still, the messages which arrive brighten every day. I have told her things that I have only shared with my closest friend and confidante, and some of it she never even asked to know…Yesterday, we both said the words I LOVE YOU. I know. ..It doesn’t make sense. I stopped trying to understand., and am just going with it.
We “ride” back and forth to work every day, and at night we have “pillow talk” time where we just talk to each other about our day, or whatever is on our mind at the time before we fall asleep. It is so relaxing.
She is close to my age, has kids of her own, we we are both upfront about doing nothing rash. We share songs to listen to, and generally brighten each others day. We plan dates that we would go on together. Some of the things she says inspire me to be a better version of me, but she takes me for who I am now. That means so much to me. I take her for who she is. We are so different in some ways that, neither of us can see why we enjoy each other’s company.
Now if someone reading this wants to get all judgey, you can do that, but this is my life. I appreciate feedback from all my readers just the same.
This post does not contradict my previous post. In my mind, it affirms it if anything.
Nonetheless, my eyes are still open to what’s already in front of me. My kids enjoyed their Christmas, and seeing them smile means the world. I still have decisions to make in my life. Don’t know if current marriage will work out. I will surround myself with people and things that lift me up, not tear me down. I will not swap one reality for another, if you will, but will remain steadfast on mission to be the guy I’m proud to be. I don’t need anyone else’s approval or acceptance for this. Love you all…